Here i am again.Blogging :)
After a while,i found myself lost with my own words.confused what i want in my life today and future.I admit myself always dependent.I cant make my own decision and will turn to family and friends to decide.Even my relationship too which i suppost to decide for own sake.To think back,I started to stand on my own feet when i arrived in Dublin,place i called home for another few years and yet i still cant cook and feed anyone coz i relied on ppl around me to cook.thats sucks..I just have no effort to work things out..again,that makes me so un-favourable to myself.this entry is not cursing me for being like this,but i definitely need self improvement.im glad,with all the courage,im willingly to try.yes,learning process.its not too late to change.Mama always said"u may not change your beauty outside,but u may change the internally".It makes me realise,i just have to keep on trying regardless how hard it is.Betol tak?In life,what sometimes appears to be the end,is really a new beginning....
What i will be in 1o years time?
I can imagine what i am in 10 years time.I probably not an auditor or accountant who sits on the chair working ass.Working and keep working like both of my parents.They r very workaholic.Im proud of them though and appreciate every penny of their effort,loves and cares.I wish im like papa who only sleeps at 10pm and mama who never stop working to make her life occupied.Seriously im differ from them.I still remember when i was 14,i wanted to be an interior designer.Then i changed to become a lawyer.I used to be very ambitious but always didnt stick to my innitial plan.Sad huh?Well,im saying in 10 years time i want to stay at home to be full time home-maker,spend more time with my both parents,seeing my liltle cousins growing up,make family bond closer than today,tea-ing & cooking with aunties and uncles,shopping and hanging out with friends,gardening with papa,teaching kids and have own business, interior and wedding planner:)
10 years is a long way to go.Insyaallah.Meantime,im praying hard to get my ass to pass with flying colours for my final year to make both Papa and Mama smile on my graduation.Smile=Proud.It is always their dream to see me graduate and this will be the second time after CAT.Thus,Papa will graduate sometime next year and both anak beranak will graduate in the same time.Amin.Its all plan and may Allah will be with us.
Tomorrow another Management Accounting class(my fav subject forever!) and need to submit Irish taxation.heh.no class after 11 am and yeay,next week is reading week.Looking forward to kawteeem with all subjects i cudnt catch up and outline plan for
individual assignments:)Havent solated yet and need some beauty nappy.Laters!
P/S:excuse my long entry.emo:)
Yuyu and i was chatting about the bridal shower that we going to held in few years time.Yeah,its a hen nite for us and the girlfriends ter-chenta.The plan is to have the cards printed with wish list of the bride and theme color for the nite will be set.Likewise i choose Pink.hehehe.Sorry Pink taken;p.Yeay!i cant wait for the girlfriends to get married soon.Hence,my mak cik yuyu so excited to plan all this and siap bagi list receptions.Yu,saya doakan awak kawen cepats!im looking forward to c my best girlfriends yuyu,aysha,lala,umi,kema and the rest to tie knot.dah la i will miss syikin's big day next march.i dun want to miss all happy in package session:((
I was in Cork last weekend.a day trip which caused me millions of tears and stressed.Yeah,im still stress until now.Terrible feelings.Had great time at Kinsale,Cork.More pictures?Facebook will do.My emotion is unstable.A mixture all unnecessary feelings that bothering me since then. Really hope Alllah gives me guts to go through all this.Amin Ya Rabbal allamin.
and last Friday,i was invited to my fav ppl marlene birthday party at turks head(excuse the spelling).Marlene's 29th birthday was sweetly organized by her bf.sgt sweeeet pls!ok,the lady in the middle is my another favourite,rosaria.2 chikas who kept my secret of MR F.Happy birthday Marlene sweetie!
Fyi, im wasting time too much wit all nonsence stuff now.Currently i have 3 assignments due early next year 2009.another 2 in row tgh tunggu!alot of pressures.im so need a weekend get away fr dublin.This Christmas i'll be in Dublin which i decided not to go London for boxing day claiming that i have tons of work to do.hahaha.Lets c whether my "IMAN" can tahan!hahahha.Anyhow,i was thinking to go Milan this feb or Paris=>mcm la ader time!But who knows,i kan last min person.
well incase che'e is reading this,All the best in future.Selamat Pengantin Baru:)
cik waed who didnt go to work:)
mr tall guy i rindu most.hahhaa.darragh,u wont understand this:)
