494 days

It took a long time , a lot of years of doing things to make myself stronger and, in some ways, harder , to get to the point where I was ready to accept the reality. I just looked around one day and it hit me like a bat to the head "what is happening now?". I had that cliched experience of looking around and realizing where I am now and ask myself, "Why? Why now? 

I think many people never realize it at all and end up floating along on whatever path they happen to find themselves drifting down. I was that person. I was that drifter, just floating and thinking I'd get there someday.For instance, my relationship. I had hope that things would work out, but I didn't want to work for it. I just thought it would happen. Well, I can tell you from personal experience...things don't "just happen." Yes, sometimes there are those moments of excitement when things seem like they're falling in place and in split seconds, the excitement turned out to fall into places...

I can think back on some times in my life when I was really down and I mean really down  and I can remember them as terrible, dark times when the world was against me and no hope was in sight. OR I can look back at them and look for the good that came from them.I can look at how strong I became from dealing with a lot of situations that other people are never faced with. I can find the good in the bad and that makes the present a much happier now.. 

 I decided that I needed to change myself and it certainly didn't happen over night. It took a long time probably years if you count all of those failed attempts from my past especially relationships to get where I am right now, but I know, there is always a new beginning of every ending. 

The future, as we all know by now, is unknown. No matter how much we plan and prepare and do what we can to control it, we never know what kinds of surprises life is going to hand us. From perfectly wrapped moments to ticking time bombs (and everything in between), life gives us some pretty interesting gifts. 

Cherish your loved ones!

500 days

There are some who spend their whole lives seeking. Sometimes giving, sometimes taking. Sometimes chasing. But often, we chase. We believe that love is a place that we get to: a destination at the end of a long road. And we can’t wait for that road to end at their destination. They are those hearts moved by the movement of hearts. Those hopeless romantics, the sucker for a love story, or any sincere expression of true devotion.

" Love doesn't consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction" . People fall in love, they change who they are to suit to each other and definitely do some compromising in order to work together. 

But, what happen if everything seems fall apart..?All those hard work and fairytale has gone. Someone who is  literally a stranger turned out to be a stranger again?

But this is the Reality that is spoken about in the Qur’an when Allah (swt) says:

“It may happen that you hate a thing which is good for you, and it may happen that you love a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows, you know not,” (2:216).

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Well it defines all things around me and everything I have experienced in life. I remember myself writing and praying to HIM out of desperation and depression. I fall and stood up again seeking for what I desire most in life. Happiness.  What does it takes to be HAPPY?

A close relationship to HIM. To leave a bit and pieces of broken heart to HIM. He will definitely mend it even you have to go another round of struggling and falling  because  after all only He KNOWS behind every test and trials.

Istikharah Cinta

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I truly believe that, if we're living in the moment, we'll find that every moment is precious, important, meaningful. When we're rushing around and focused on the next thing (as I often am), we tend to ignore many of our moments, passing over them quickly in search of the next thing to do.

Even the most mundane or sad or boring moments are important and worthy of our attention. Which is why it's so important for us to stay in the present. We have these moments for a reason and we should realize the value in them and appreciate them fully.


We all have challenges to face, and one of the greatest challenges we have is what kind of attitude we are going to have in the face of adversity. It's not easy to choose the bright side of the road, but it's the best way to get through any challenge in your life.

The answer

You know those days when everything seems to go wrong and up till now its the same? When your plans fall apart, you can't find your glasses, and then your relationship seems breaking into pieces? Those kinds of day are the worst. When you're having one of those days, it's hard to imagine a time when things went right or to envision a time when things might once again go your way. And it's even harder to live happily and things seem to be going so terribly wrong. 

My life will never be perfect? 

Knowing that life will never be perfect, that I will never be perfect, will take a lot of the pressure off. If you know you can't be perfect, you have to settle for being the best you can be. And, right now, that sounds pretty good to me by Mary Ann - Time is running out. Seek for His guidance. 

Love

My soul is attracted to your soul, in the most platonic way possible.

 My heart wants what’s best for you, without gaining anything in return.

 My smile wants to see your smile reflected back in my eyes, not because I am “in love” with you, but because I love you, just as I love the rest of humanity.

I love you because through you, I begin to see me. I look in your eyes and I see my reflection. 

I love you because you just happen to be living on the same planet as me, and if I didn’t love you, I could even start to hate you. 

I love you because if you are hurt, a part of me is pained, because in reality we are a part of a whole; we are one. I love you because when I’m with you your state impacts my own.

God placed us together on this Earth for a reason, and it was not so we could stay as far away from each other as possible.

It was so that we can love each other, and through each of our love, we can begin to experience His Love—the one true Love.

(taken from Suhaibwebb)

April

" Never forget how He put you back together. That moment when you felt helpless and alone, never forget who never left. To forget this is the greatest heedlessness. No matter who or what may be beside you now, never forget those moments when it was only Him. Only Him."