Ramadhan Kareem

One of the most important aspects during ramadhan is always being grateful. The more thankful you are for the people, experiences, and things you have in your life, the easier it is to stay positive and cherish this moment especially in this ramadhan month. I would like to wish all muslims, happy fasting and don't forget to do a bit of exercise to keep fit! Likewise, this year my routine will be the same as last year except this year instead of gym during the short lunch, I will be joining tadarus with my fellow colleagues. May Allah bless all of us with good physical and mental health and grant all our doa. InsyaAllah.

Sincerely,

Me

Happy Sunday

I love that quote so much and think about it often when I am going thru hard times.  I also think about the struggles I have had in life and realize that whatever I am going thru or have gone thru, there is always someone else struggling alot more than me.  I have a wonderfully blessed life.  Blessed with wonderful parent and amazing bunch of friends who helped me a lot to go through again my heart break. Life has many bumps in the road and these are just a few that are in our path right now.

This week will be the last hoorah weekend to spend before Ramadhan starts. I am all excited to go for terawikh and break fast with those who matters most. Plus this year will be my second birthday celeb during the ramadhan month and my bestie who stays in San Francisco is coming back to celebrate with me again! So much of excitement to share in July..

Anyway, I finally tender my resignation two weeks ago after 4 years of service with the Bank.  It took a long time for me to get to the point where I was ready to submit my letter and leave my comfort zone. I have to explain to my two immediate bosses and also my executive director banking reasons for me to leave.It was tough for me to decline their offer to counter back.To be honest, I had no major issues with anyone in the Bank and enjoying my work so much. I love my job and people around me. Everything was smooth sailing and there were so many things I wanted to share in my next post on my current job.

I am so blissfully happy doing what I love now, what I feel inspired by, and those moments make every difficult task I have to conquer, every hour of stress and frustration, completely and entirely worth it. Even when it's hard, I'm spending my time doing what I love and that's something I love being a Relationship Manager in this Bank.

Its just after a while, I thought of switching my job scope from being in Corporate Banking to Treasury. Totally different from what I am doing now. From writing credit papers to writing and commenting on bonds market- well more on analysing market economy. In fact, I have to take two licenses in order for me to be in this line. Well it's time to move on to a better future with the new organisation this September. I can't wait to adapt and look forward to start my new job. InsyaAllah. Few pictures to share over the weekend. Paintball with my colleagues and get together with my girls! Happy Sunday!

Ryan Cabrera - True (Video)

“There are thousands of paths. They all lead nowhere.
You must ask yourself one question: ‘Does this path have a heart?’
If it does, the path is good. If it doesn’t, it is of no use.”

Don Juan

This has been the hardest, and yet the best, lesson for me to learn. In the past, I've opened up my heart, but it's always been hesitantly, with great care, and always holding just a little bit more in than I should. I fall in love too soon and too hard.

The thing I've found with real love is that you won't mind changing nearly as much as you might have thought when it comes to doing it for someone you care about (and someone who is also making an effort to change for you too). Love, real love, really is about compromising and meeting the other person half-way and I've learned that, much to my surprise, it's a lot easier to change when you want to do it for the sake of someone who means the world to you. Though what I expected and my happiness didn't stay longer, I am so grateful that Allah has given me another strength to keep moving and stay strong.

Love is a hard work. It starts off easy and carefree until reality sets in and then there you find that there are just two people who are alike in some ways and different in others and who have to find ways to interact with and love one another in spite of their differences. Love is work. But, I've learned, the work you have to do for the one you love shouldn't be a complete drain on you, making you question or wonder if all of the stress and strain is worth it.

I used to think that love was about someone else, about giving up a part of who you were so that you could then become part of a unit. I thought love was about going from "me" to "we." But now I know that isn't what love's about at all. Break up is suck big time but this time round, it is really a great lesson for me to learn. So many things to share now but one thing i always keep in my mind, I will always have Allah. He will never turn me away.  

A walk to remember: "Please remember"

Losing is hard

There’s something amazing about this life. The very same worldly attribute that causes us pain is also what gives us relief: Nothing here lasts. Leaving is hard. Losing is harder. So few days ago I asked the question, ‘why do people have to leave each other?’. The answer took me into some of my life’s deepest realizations and struggles. I always thought after the bad times, come the good times. I thought puzzle pieces of my life that always seemed to be getting lost into the wrong spaces are now fitting together perfectly but it did not last.I 

keep on thinking why??Why is this happening again??

Mum told me " Sometimes Allah takes in order to give. InsyaAllah He will give you something better when He took away something from you". So the question I asked was answered. I realized all these years, I only ran after His creation. I chased for perfect relationship with human and in the end, it leads me to frustration. I struggled and swallowed the pain. I have forgotten life can never be perfect. A human is not meant to be used to benefit yourself. They are meant to be loved and cherished for the sake of Allah SWT. In other words, accept Allah's plan and have faith...If something is destined for you,it will definitely yours..

Thanks Mama for always being there when I'm lost.

Today and Tomorrow..you will.

When you know (and stay true to) who you are, the words of others carry less weight. You know what matters most to you and you know if you are staying true to your own path and what others say shouldn't make you question who you are. And, when you are true to yourself, you can be more open to others words because you know they will either ring true to you or they will be so inaccurate that you won't even need to think twice about them.

"You can make the most of anything life throws at you—even when it seems like it's cloaked in negativity. Fake it till you make it Kema".That's what Tasha told me for zillionth of time everytime I had my heart broken.She's the first person I run to every time I had a problems. Through ups and down, she saw me crying over my relationship, one to another back then. My one and only roomate( besides Elina). 

and today, she is married to a person she never thought that she will.Finally she met her life / travel partner for entire life. Congratulation my dear. You deserved a happy life after all!! I am so happy to see you dancing around during the wedding. So cheerful! Glad Em make the best of you! We love you till jannah :)

Colbie Caillat - I Never Told You

It hasn't been easy.I've been living life both the positive and the negative and I've been learning how to make the most of everything I've encountered. Life is too short to only think about other people rather than yourself.I used to think I knew exactly what my life would be like. I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I knew what I wanted and what I thought would happen to me. But I had no idea that all the happiness I had won't last forever. I have been writing about my failure in a relationships and how i deal with broken hearts - one to another and to another.. Since it would probably take a long, long time to go through all of these again and again, I have reached to a point, oh yes, I have to stop thinking and trying too hard to work things out. Perhaps, I should find a new hobby besides playing futsal.