The end of Nur Kasih

The end of tragedy which really petrified Nur Amina's life.Adam and Nur Amina finally got back together.Im glad the end of Nur Kasih was good.I shall give credits to Khabir Bhatia for doing great job.Nur Kasih has been the main highlight since June and everyone in Dublin inc me looking forward to watch it every Friday.So this is it.Nur Kasih's series ended during the Eid Adha.

I was amazed with Adam's quote.

"Tuhan takkan menduga kita lebih dari ape yang kita mampu tanggung"

The quote is precise.I must agreed with that.It is definite.There will always be a good reason of something or Hikmah.Good things is from Allah.Karma never exist in Islam.There was one time, a friend of mine corrected me when I wrote my status "karma will bite you back".It should be qada' and qadar.and again,Nur Kasih series has left good impact to everyone.Khabir Bhatia has inserted good value in his story.Too much to be elaborated but i learnt something from this series.


Oh,I skipped the solat raya this morn.I woke up around 9 and there goes my eid prayers.I received few calls during the morning and smses for raya all the way fr Msia.Thank you!Luckily I managed to speak to PapaMama after they got back from Melaka since the line was sucks big time.Lol.I think Melaka should upgrade the line though!


Anyways,Serene rang us up for dinner at hers.So I baked her my traditonal fav cake-Kuih Bakar since today's menu was more traditional.Its RAYA kan!Innitially I thought of baking brownies but since I havent tried before, i sticked to my Kuih Bakar.The food was fab-sedap-nak-mati.Besides that.I have made a surprised for Serene and Nuar by wearing hijab to their place.Haha.Serene was asking me,kenapaaa?Haha.Its so akward seeing me with hijab but who knows I might change kan?InsyaAllah soon!


Few Snaps!


Licin kot everything:p


and,

this would be my fav pick,

Fairy & I



Happy Eid Adha muslims.



p/s:no such thing of korban kasih ok.korban la lembu or kambing rather than kasih.haha:p

LDR

A new beginning of LDR.

Hilman and I connect through msn,ym,smses and phone calls everyday since we got back together.I have to bear Long distance relationship 's consequences especially time difference.Everyday i will ended crying on the phone because i feel so tough to fit in.Maybe it’s because I feel a little down whenever I realise he’s a million miles away from me.


He has been really up to his architecture assignments while im so free and need to be entertained.When im about to sleep,he wakes up.I have to bear his smses come in around 3am while Malaysian time is 11 am.I guess thats part of LDR.There will always be ups and down.The only thing is to stay positive.


A new beginning of something I had before.Syukur,I feel so much better although im fragile at times.We’ve been through so much together, and I know we can get through this.Meantime,I shall doa for us.Thats all i afford to do.


Yayang,If you’re reading this, I just want to say thank you for being in my life again.


Love,

*Your annoying,cry baby and emotional gf*



Oh yea,im going to put back the stalker column because I found out someone has been stalking on my blog and making yadayada stories.Gosh,get a life woman!You should look around you and u'll see something that shining.Allah has given u big oppurtunity to see the world.Can u imagine those who born with blind eyes lagi kesian ok.27 is so old to be pathethic ok!


:)

3 a.m

Blogging while having coffee next to me and i couldnt sleep for the past few weeks.I havent got time to update here and there.So,this is it.Blogging in the middle of night while everyone is sleeping.

well,

Since Mummy left,I started to feel the emptiness.I spent 24 hours with her for 2 weeks and we had fab time together.Everytime I used my telekung,i still can smell her perfumes.It makes me miss her so much.Sending her to the airport was the awful moment ever.I hate the fact we have to be apart again and i couldnt take it anymore.

Before i begin to write more,my relationship status in facebook has changed.And yes,Im in a relationship with him again and this is for real.I must admit my heart has broken into pieces and to mend my broken heart was the toughest phase in my life.Everyday i would miss his presence even i tried to hide it.

I have gone through rigorous years of deleting him from my life.I tried my best but I failed.To be honest although we ended our relationship,we still keep in touch everyday.Then i realized i can't live without him even i started to mingle around.To this extend,I have hurt so many feelings just because I couldn't get over him.I never intended to hurt anyone.I am truly sorry.

As I tried to reconcile everything a month ago,I figured out astonishing news which shattered me.There's another person in between us.It takes 2 to tango isnt it?Can you imagine myself have to face all this again?I was extremely breakdown and I couldn't stop crying.My condition was unstable and vulnerable everyday.I must say i have no strength to fight the pain.Allah has tested me again.

As pathetic as it may seem,I spent most of the time blaming myself for being idiot.He tried to convinced me and promised everything will be fine but deep inside,I was devastated.I felt betrayed and cheated.Life has its way of teaching me from rights and wrongs but not in this relationship.My door of happiness was shut in the middle of recon.

I was down and couldn't think what's best for us.Things wasn't right.I lost my appetite and couldn't sleep well for the past a month.I pray to Allah to bestow me strength everyday.Mum came at the perfect time when i was down.She was here to calm me down.I was surprised when he actually handed mummy a box of khazanah jewellery box the night before mummy flew to Dublin.A gift for my graduation and an apology.

Things happen for a reason.I opted to take a risk again of investing my life to a person i love most besides mamapapa.I'm filled with so many questions in my head. Have I made the right choice?Eventually,I woke up from my sorrow and ready to start all over again.This would be the last chance i shall give for this relationship.Im leaving the past and open a new book with him as a start.

Something that I will remember forever and will really keep me going is my strength which Allah has awarded me although i was utterly suffered before.I gained my strength.My relationship with him is getting better.Everyday we try to work things out even Long Distance Relationship is sucks big time.All i can rely on is trust and im sure Allah will lead me.I only can pray the best for us,InsyaAllah.I strongly believed,Allah will guide me even he took away my happiness for a while.

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Confrontation

I had small argument with papa just now.I'm sorry for making all these nonsence decision which hurt u papa.I never intended to do this.Papa refused to allow me going back for good.He wants me to stay and pursue studies.However,myself wants to go back and work.I want to be a career woman and do part time studies.He thinks the idea of working and studying are ridiculous.I know papa wants the best for me but................,

I seriously want to go back.I miss everything i used to have.

With love,

:)

and she left...,

After spending quality time together,Mummy finally left me today.I couldnt hold my feelings.I cried all the way.I still can feel her presence.I miss her already.

Thank you Mama for everything.

so,before she left,we had our ;

last coffee session

as well as last dinner

I miss u Mama:(

Adik loves You.
alot

Nothing is worth more than this day

Syukur Alhamdulillah.After 2 years of juggling,stressing and crying,I managed to receive my scroll in front of Mum and the rest of guests & graduants although Dad wasnt here to share all these.I wish u were here to share the most anticipated day of my life.


Anyhow,the conferring was held in the evening.I woke up as early at 9 am & went for my makeover at Benefit Debenhams.The make-over was fab.I mean its naturally looks and not over doing it.Lil bit less better.Then heading home and dolled up.I wore my tailor-made kebaya which I really loved the design.


Fairy,Rina,Syira,Bobo,Ayman,Yan,Marina and housemates,were there to celebrate us.Thank you so much lovies!Those who sent me smses,again,Thanks alot.The ceremony was incomplete without Iskandar and Nurudin,thats for sure.They should have been here with us.Unfortunately,both are engaged with work and studies in Malaysia.

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The result:)

Mommy and I

Ash & Tasha

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and,

I couldnt emphasize what was my feeling when James Browne called upon my name.It was mixed feelings.Sad,Happy and Proud.After all its worth of tears.Back then,i was excited during Uitm's graduation.Tak der rasa nak menangis but this time I almost dropped my tears because I have gone through ups and down throughout my studies path.A new beginning of life.


I would like to thank everyone who has been my support system through out years.Thank you for being there when i need a place to shelter.Besties,u all paling termuah.Im thankful for having wonderful friends who always boost my motivation level,who sent me smses,who called me when i was breaking down,who advised me in anyway,who concerned alot more than they should and who taught me to be strong person.


and also,

I would never done this without my pillar of strength .Thank you PapaMama for all those things.Thank you for the financial assist u have provided,forking out savings for the sake of my future,praying hard for me,rang me everyday to ensure im fine,listened to my studies,relationships and friends problems,remind me to recite quran and doa and not to mention,UNCONDITIONAL love.You both are my reason to live.


Love,

Myself.Recent Accounting and Finance graduates:)

♥