Friday, 25 December 2009

Not so white christmas & sleepover

Had sleepover & yucking here and there at my place since the house is empty and dinner for christmas.Now I am stuffed with lots of fat.Haha.Sheeesh.Anyways,Yuyu is arriving tomorrow.Im all excited and well prepared to cry at the airport.Well,let the pictures do the talking will yea?Burp;p

Merry Christmas to all readers.


Tuesday, 22 December 2009

Quick visit

They came to visit Amy.So we had lunch and dinner since they have to catch morning flight.It was confidential visit.I could see Amy's happy face when she met her family members.Now,im officially homesick.I terribly miss everything at homeeeeeeeee..

Sunday, 20 December 2009

6 a.m

Daddyyyy rang me at 5 am while im still having beauty sleep.Sheeesshh,he asked me to ym-ish immediately because few relatives from Singapore came over to pay him a visit.Nothing like unconditional love kan?So I had to wake up and went online.I got to see my not so little cousin Ica after a while.She has grown up and so Fudaili.Hello cousins!Hope to see u more in future.

Here I am blogging while everyone is still snoozing.I took the opportunity to do my laundry since this evening we are expecting guests(Amy's auntie and uncle).I'll post some pictures later tonite.These couple of days,I have to bear the irish weather.Freezing sgt.It was snowing back on wednesday but not as much as UK.hampeh btol.I really hope to celebrate white christmas perhaps it will be my last christmas before heading back to kaaayyy ellll.Everyone is leaving:(

Yesterday,Fairy and I had put on Lush facial mask.blerrrrghhh,mcm tepung gomaaakkkk okay!

Till then lovies.

Saturday, 19 December 2009


Irritating for repeating it,but I feel so annoyed.I extremely felt sorry your english is worst when you are trying to emphasize your feelings.Such a drama queen.I honestly think there are so much things to think about rather than making dramas! Allah s.w.t offers life to be shared with the ones you love and given that opportunity, use it wisely.Remember,life is what you make of it and how you want it to be.We should have welcomed 1st Muharram 1431 Hijrah free from grudge and open a new book.What did u get from bimbo-ish ur self?Grabbing all attention?


Hati yang bersih dan selamat (qalbun salim); iaitu hati orang mukmin yang taat kepada Allah dan RasulNya, benar-benar mengasihi keduaNya, mengutamakan Allah dan Rasul dari segala yang lain dan cita-citanya tidak lain hanya untuk mencapai keredhaan Allah. Hati jenis ini bersih sepenuhnya dari kufur dan syirik dan segala jenis penyakit hati sama ada penyakit syak (ragu-ragu), riyak, ‘ujub, sum’ah, hubbud-dunya (cintakan dunia), hubbun-nafs (cintakan diri), hasad dan sebagainya. Hati inilah yang dikehendaki oleh Allah di mana di akhirat Dia tidak akan menerima melainkan hambanya yang mengadapNya dengan membawa hati jenis ini. Firman Allah;

“(Hari kebangkitan itu) ialah hari yang tidak akan memberi manfaat harta benda dan anak pinak, melainkan orang yang datang mengadap Allah dengan hati yang salim (bersih dan selamat)”. (asy-Syu’arak: 88)

Berkata Imam Hasan al-Basri; “Ubatilah hati kamu kerana Allah hanya mengingini dari hamba-hambaNya hati yang baik dan soleh”. (al-Wafi, Dr. Wahbah az-Zuhaili, hlm. 40).

Dear You,

May Allah always be with you.I had enough of pondering words.Tired of indirectly telling that I found out u read my blog and poured inside the facebook.Its really pathetic tau!Get over it la.

Kindly Regards,


Tuesday, 15 December 2009

Family Man

Papa and I always argued.Yes,we have different kind of thoughts and I am very kiasu.Back in high school,he has been controlled me and hit me because I'm so rebellious and stubborn.He refused to give me a freedom of being teenagers.He dragged me to join Taekwondo,sent me to Abacus class and made my schedule packed with all sort of classes which I hate to the max.At that time,I haven't realised that he wants the best for her only daughter.He made me "mandi" air magazines" i bought,threw my perfumes into the dustbin because I obtained B's and C's in the exam.Sheeesh,papa was so strict.

So really,he has been hard on me during my teenagers and I have to obey him in anyway.But because of his strict-ness,his hard-ness and his contolled-ness,I won't be here and became a human.He made my life now,well at least I didn't turn out to be jerk.These few days,I haven't had chance to speak to him because he was busy attending this and that.

I rang him while he was on his way back home.We had long father-daughter conversation while he was driving.Mama had to hold the phone and made loud speaker.Likewise,he made his LAME-ANNOYING jokes,match made me with his friend's son and remind me not to spend on shopping.We both kept on laughing,yucking here and there and on the other hand,Mama was abandoned by us.Poor Mama.

Papa and I became a good friend since I entered Uitm.We sit together and discuss serious matter.Even if I have financial problem here,I didn't go to Mama instead.I'll send him an email then ring him.Mama always think Papa has spoilt me.Oh well,that's the privileged of being daddy's girl isnt it?Papa has agreed with my decision to go back for good.Yeay!Im so relieved but he gave me only a year probation.Sheeshhh 1 year only okaaay?

I can't wait to be back.Papa wants me to pursue professional exam in UK or Masters in Adelaide after 1 year probation.I prefer to study in Malaysia though!Hahaha.We'll see how it goes after that.I shall doa what's the best for now.I need a good experience in corporate world.Despite all that,I just want to be with my loved ones and friends.Terribly missing everyone:(

Thank you Papa.Adik sayangggg Papa alot and alot.Erggh,can i get extra money for boxing day?*COUGH*

Sunday, 13 December 2009

Endless time

I am absolutely terrible at managing my feelings especially dealing with endless time misery.Hilman and I have gone through ups and down to build up the relationship again.I become fragile at times.Hilman tried his best to comfort me in anyway.Tq yayang.Sheessssh,i probably need a retail therapy.It has been a while since I had my shopping treatment.I have so many things in my head.Boxing day in twooooo weeks time,Yuyu & Kema's visit and new years party. I am still doing very little with my time:(

Anyhowwww,Good Luck to my dearest friends who's battling with professional papers.InsyaAllah,youcandoit.Haha.I haven't registered for my June exam.Eyyyy,can I take other course rather than accounting?Haha.Perhaps,interior design ke?I can be a good consultant though.Imagine,im consulting people how they should decorate and what color they should match with.Cool isnt it?Unfortunately,im bad in drawing.

A little note to whom it may concern,I knew u have been reading my blog and tried to jeopardise everything.Threatening is not the solution.You are growing old woman!Face the real fact in your life.Find your inner strength and keberkatan Allah.Stop bothering.Allah has given such opportunity to treasure life,percaya pada Qada'and Qadar as well as live as muslimah sejati.You are embarassing yourself and honestly think before you do.Atleast think about your mum and dad who brought you to this world.I think I have had enough of pondering words.

Off to bed now lovies ♥

Friday, 11 December 2009


My ding dong gf officially Mrs Iskander today.I was delighted and tears stremming on my face when Isk and Fiza sat on the dais.Then I quickly ended the call because I didn't want all the guest to see me crying.

I woke up at 9am in the morning and put on my kebaya just to get the feelings of being there.We were on the skype for 5 hours.Everyone was there.The family and close friends.Everyone greeted when they saw me on skype even the bride's mother.She told me not to cry during the akad.Sweeettt of u auntie!Fiza's little nephew even held the laptop when Nor was busy sitting next to Fiza.Isk even waved at me on skype.

More pictures dlm facebook okies:)

Of course I wish I was there to celebrate her.Its beyond my words to see my close girlfriend got married to a nice guy,Iskander.Alhamdulillah.

Please take care of my babe Isk.I know u will.I'll pray for your happiness.


7 hours before..,

I left 7 hours before my ding dong,bonzai and not-so-yikes gf changing her status as a wifey.InsyaAllah,ill be on skype at 8 am precisely.I remind myself not to cry because this is not funeral referring to Sabby's quote before her solemnization last week.Oh congrats sabby!I can't wait to share the moment with Nor and Fiza.I rang her few mins ago and she's still on bed.

Me :"are you nervous?"

Fiza:"no,im so sleepy now.."

Me:"i'll c u in few hours..gosh,wake up la bride!"


So I rang Nor while she was on bed too.What on earth they still on bed at 8am.Sheesh.Anak daras nie:)

Nor:"ma,fiza is no longer so sad.pls come back".

:"me eitherrrrrr.can't believe she's getting married in 8 hours from now.I promise tak nangisskype nnt!"

Nor:"ma,pls don't make a will embarrass u because everyone is going to look at u.pls come back."

Me:"im nerrrrrvous.*breath in,breath out*

I better get going now.I have 7 hours to sleep before the *kaypoo* session.

Good luck babe.

Wednesday, 9 December 2009


I cannot resist myself to munch this & that today.From eating crackers,chocos,then pizza and finally Millies cookies Anis bought for me.The bad thing about eating junk food is im putting on weight.Haha.LMAO.

I was supposed to cook for Bun but due to Irish weather,I decided to stay at home instead.Sorry ok Bun.I'll cook my newly found recipe masak lemak cili api later.

Anyways,my bonzai gf Hafizah Nazaruddin is getting married this friday.We gonna on skype during the make up session as well as the solemnization.With the technology we have these days, it’s not hard to be part of her big day although im miles away.Sometimes I feel physically apart from my loved ones sucks big time because i miss the big day.But it doesnt matter.I want to witness my beloved gf changing her status to Mrs Iskander this friday 11/12/09.

Incase you come across this darling,I want u to know I am so happy for u and Isk.Im sorry Im not there to share the joy, all in one package.I definitely going to cry this friday.Remember,u are my choc on top of my ice cream.A friend whom I love so much and keep your red frame u gave to me before i left.Sob sob:(

your dear to the heart gf:)

p/s:Gemoknyerrrrrrrrrr I!

Monday, 7 December 2009

Remain faithful

There's always a good reason of things occured in life.I decided to take 14 days whether to remain faithful or leave it.I left 4 days before i take a step ahead.The past cannot be changed thats for sure but the past remain painful for the next years to come.There are certain things I have to consider before the final decision.Bad and Good memories.I really hope 2010 brings a new beginning of myself.

What has brought to attention is the Truth I have to face.I spent most of the time thinking what is the best for me and of course surrounded by wonderful and supportive friends,they want the best for me.Every time I came across the pictures,my heart skipped a beat.I despised the pictures and cursed it.My only question is how could you?The truth revealed one by one.Allah has shown me.

Having amazing parents,loving friends and family,made me want to retain beautiful life in future because everyone loves me.InsyaAllah.Why should i sacrifice my whole life loving someone who hurt my feelings?Convincing me,this wont happen again is not enough to promise me beautiful life ahead.I had the time of my life loving someone who jeopardised my trust.

I pray to Allah to lead me and give the best petunjuk in life,bestow me a strong heart because I need an extra strength.If we meant for each other,we remain forever and if its not,there will always be another destiny.Leading up to this day,I must say myself is still confused and work things out.I tried to avoid from talking about the past but the pain inside,only God knows.

Im feeling demotivated.In 4 days,anything can happen.The time will tell.InsyaAllah.

Sunday, 6 December 2009


Christmas is around the corner.The Ivy girls organized Cris kindle and every one of us has to find perfect gift to exhange pressie which cost 30 Euro.Today,we had the swapping session.Mas,Syafa,Els cooked the bomb grilled chicken while I baked my traditional kuih bakar as part of the event.

My attempt to fool Bun was the funniest thing ever.During the draw,I *tipu sunat* her kononnyer I have to buy stuff for Els.Dang.Apparently I was late today.Everyone saw me wrapping the gift which was so obviousits for Bun.Hahaha.

Bun:Aldo clutch
Mary:Benefit Make up set
Syafa:Beat Perfume
Mas:Pearl set
Ryn & Safia:Dress
Els:English mirror

and of course I got my warehouse quilted bag,a gift from Els.

Everyone was soooooo delighted with the gift.Wish for christmas came true.Ok,my another wish is to get chanel bag but im still not afford to buy it on my own.tak per la,I had my so-look-alike-quilted-chanel.Sigh**

Christmas is less than 2 weeks.I am expecting 2 of my good friends coming over to pay me a visit all the way from Malaysia.So excited tau!

p/s:Please sedekahkan Al-Fatihah to a friend of mine who loss her mother today.To Tengku Eleanor,my condolence to u and family.Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas ur mum.Be strong girl.Innalillah.