Sunday, 30 December 2007
hurm,im in the mood of writing..there r too many things,too many pains and too many happiness in 2007.the ups and down i have gone through fr this whole year.again,i am thanked ALLAH for making me realise that life is learning process.its a journey where there is no exception.
i feel like im still 16 years lil girl.for the past 6 years i have found new things in life.friendship and family.these 2 F means everything and make me complete.i learnt that family always comes first regardless how far u go.the only thing i always regret is "not being a gud lil girl to papa n mama for the past 6 years".mama n papa are my pillar of strength.
friendship comes next...i dunno how wonderful i am now.there r too many to be listed and again they(i refer to ppl i loved most) complete me..couldnt ask for more.thanks fr everything and the tears that showed during my depart was sincere.missing u guys alot and the rest too.i wont forget u guys.and fairy n nana,thanks fr lending ur shoulder to shelter since i arrived here.cant imagine how horrible i am w/o u both!
a person i gave my heart for almost 4 years,i never thought we have gone to dis far..its too deep but its getting fade as time grow.i couldnt blame u all the way.4 years knowing u is enough for me to know u better than other people do.its hard to take all the pains and scars that left inside me.i realised that i have big dreams in front me .u such a great person.i cannot deny that i used to berangan our future will look like,i want to spend my whole life with u,strolling every weekend at the beach,draw u my heart shape on ur hand and jot u morning notes telling how much i love u.ur love is my king..but,all those thing i wish have jeopardised when my mind thinking of the things that u did n done.one thing i cant forget is ur mama.ur mother always remain in my heart...
i still remember how kind arwah auntie to me.she is like a mother to me.watching her suffered made me tak senang duduk and i couldnt leave u alone while ur mum sakit.well,after all we both shared many things.its hard isnt?i doakan u'll meet sumone who perfect for u.
bloging out for now.al fatihah to auntie noriah..auntie,akma misses u alot.none can replace u in hilman and the sisters heart..semoga auntie ditempatkan dgn org2 yg solehah.amin
"eleh,kakak pun tau swim jugaaaaa!"
papa,ayah cik and hanis berjacuzzi.ish.melekat wit papa.
the brat in family."wait fr me to cum bck.siappppp!"
those kiddos jacuzzi?jealous ok!
hi again.sorry couldnt upload london pics due to sum prob occured.will do insyaallah.btw,just finished ym-ing wit my uncle,cik yus.he sent me the ketots pics during their holidays on christmas.amboii.they were like sakan berholidays.its a routine fr the family to get away during this time.im soooo envy.plus hanis dah pandaiii swim.this lil gal is the brat at the mo.melekat jer dgn papa..haish.she is replacing my place.hehehe.
p/s:i really wanna spend my summer hols in island.(perhentian,redang,langkawi,kapas)!!!
well didnt capt pics during boxing day except ali's cam.i had blast shopping.fyi,i tinggal 2 pound which make me broken on boxing day mlm smp la balik to dublin...klakak ok.i bought 3 handbags yg mmg i nakkkkkk-la-sgt except this grey bag yg kena bebel dgn fairy"kalu i ader,sure u tak bli"...hahahhahaa.bought few tops n bottom.sikit jer but ali happened to b my pembawa paper bags.pity him.
fairy n nana siap bershop at the airport.they bought d&g,micheal kors and dior sunglasses.sgt jeles pls.hahaha.my fault menghabiskan duit mase boxing day:( too bad.
boxing day amatlah super rmai but uber best!too many ppl till berebot the stuff!!ahaa.i should save money fr next year so i could line up fr dior,gucci and those designers.(berangan-lah).
will upload the the pics.im at nana's place at the mo coz my hsemate have feverish..kesian my clown roomie.get well soon clown.
Tuesday, 25 December 2007
christmas is sooooo dork ok.no public transport.airy,nanot n i decided to stay at nadia's hse.having blast time memakai pyjamas sajer and i tdo like 3 times.bangon,mkn n tdo.so excuse the chubby face.
till then.will update once im back to dublin.
p/s:i wanna wanna watch the romance movie ps: i love u;p....can anyone temaning i pls?hahahhaha;p
Saturday, 22 December 2007
Friday, 21 December 2007
Thursday, 20 December 2007
their gedikness when im not around to nags!
showing off their teeth.seriously horrible:))
mengadaaaa nyer suroh papa pkaikan=hanis
she is so manjaaaa yg ngadas!
i will always doakan ko.omg.11 years of friendship and now ko akan kaweeen.i wish i can be there during ur wedding.so happy for u.i still remember the 1st time we became gud friends and getting cloz till now.klakar la when i think back.we combined our name into:LINKIN.(dat time linkin park tak der)
i miss u sgt-sgt and the bunch too!
Tuesday, 11 December 2007
well few days left to eid adha.papa told me he had picked up their bajus raya haji for mama n him.wahhhh.im working ok during eid adha.nasib for few days then im done.takkkk lagi keja temp coz its hell PENAT!but for the sake of $$ for retail theraphy in london,tak perr la.i dun mind.
recently,i knew dis guy in my class.i should address him as a friend.he approached me in law class..at the 1st place i wasnt comfortable communicating with him coz we have communication barrier.then it happened we became close.i must say a gud friend and he confessed me....bla bla.he was so interested to know abt islam and i.i guess probably because i am muslim and he wants me to share everything abt islam.my heart melts when sum1 is so eager to know.apparently,he was misunderstand wit wat i told him abt relationship.he lost his trust just becoz he saw one muslim girl(happened to b our friend)kissing the other guy in public.bullshit kan?it turned me off.i didnt blame dat grl but himself.he only believed wat he saw.come on..
i was wrong about him.i tot he was so sincere.i didnt have any feelings towards him but the matter of he is playing around with islam.in islam,we was taught "zina is sinful act" and whichever act contribute zina is "HARAM".i told him everyone make thier own choice.its up to them to obey or not bcoz after ALLAH knows better.haishh gerams.we argued.
there is no point to b his friend anymore.sometimes,im grateful coz i didnt fall for him.and to him, a person who soooo concern abt relationship.u should have found out wat is love abt.its not just sharing thoughts n feelings and doing things together,but how u respect each other is the main one.although we have been "friends" for few weeks n it didnt work out coz we came fr different religion,i hope one day u'll find wat is islam...insyaallah.n the chrismast card u gave,i keep it etho i didnt celebrate it.
hurm,im jotting too much.lack of ideas but im relieved coz im no longer attach to him as a friend.i sounds very idiot bcoz i melayan but my intention is to b friend.FRIENDS COME N GO.tak per la.i have enuff list of friends for now...
dats ol for now.im blogging out.nak g ym wit mumsy n daddy.
will update more.saya kejaaaaaaaaaaa!!!aaaargghh.
andddd...slmt hari raya haji.
Friday, 7 December 2007
its being lil while we didnt talk...and when i spoke to u just now i feel very complete..no words can define how content i am today!i really wanna update myself about u but ended u sibok suroh cite psl i.omg.many things incurred in these 2 months after i left.the last time we spoke was on hari raya.babe,i can imagine how u look like when u r struggling with the studies.smp nak muntah-muntah.i guess the knowledge smp nak terkeluar ok.u r such a smart girl n my best sifu ever!!
although our distance is too far,i just wanna say dat i always wish u r here with me.as u said,"we both gonna go crazy if living together"..yes!we always have time to window shop eventhough we broke like hell!hhahha.i remember when we 1st met mase kat uitm.i tot u was a japanese sesat but ended u became my roomate n classmate.dats funny!we both r like belangkas however u n i are diff character.u sgtlah soffffttt ok.pfftt;p.went to class together,eat,lepak,set theme color to wear,shop sama2,gossips is a must,exchanging letters and study in library smp tutup.time has passed us for 4 years.we have gone through ups n downs in friendship.i learnt alot about it.this is lil secret for u,did u rmber when we both gado during our convo and our parents me-exchange bouquet of flowers and captured pics together?i cried mase on the way balik in the car.u know y?coz we r like sisters-forever yg tak dpt pisah even ika came across us..we shared lots of thingssss.
babe,im so mean kan when i didnt tell u im leaving?i screwed it.i nangis teresak-esak in the plane when i think back.my fault...but the more we jauh,the more we remember each other.intercept thru hearts..i tak sbr nak tunggu u finish up wit acca n come here to work.we can reunite.its our dream!include miera,we r complete.i couldnt ask more...so babe,if u reading this..
i miss u always.its sincerely from me.
love u always.
Wednesday, 5 December 2007
1.16 july(my bday)
2.3 june(mama's bday)
3.12 nov(papa's bday)
THE THINGS YOUVE DONE IN THE LAST 3MINUTES:
1.kaco bun masak
2.spoke to marina abt blower
3.checking on my sms:)
3 OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1.spice girls.im their big fans since stdr 5
3.samson.i have own reason y!
THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1.balik msia n hugs kuat2 smua org.
2.shopping is theraphy.
THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
3.designer's handbags kat brownthomas.*berangan*
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
2.shopping.who can deny kan?
3.photo boothing!im gud at this;p
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
THREE FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1.ppg.my nieces loved it so muchos!
3.garfield.im a big fan of garfield:))
THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO:
2.bt & bt2.(i only can look around jer)
3.jervis but ou still the best mall.
THREE MOST THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1.wallet buroks plus all the receipts
THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1.pink is a new black.hahahaha!
THREE EVENTS YOURE LOOKING FORWARD TO:
1.my homecoming event!cant waitttttt...
2.bestie's grand wedding..byk nak kena list!
3.my big day=convo sayaaaa
Tuesday, 4 December 2007
Friday, 30 November 2007
will update more soon.
btw,i just realised dat im a dork person.justify dork.=LATER LAH.
gud luck to ol my dearest friends yg sbok nak berxm.ahahaha.im free for now to study those ACCA.hahah.well,im sure u guys dah well prepared kan?ol the best.
p/s:nak studyyyyyy di 14 jugak.LOL.uitm di hatikuuuuu!boo.tpu gels;))
Thursday, 22 November 2007
i had an interview this evening at TKMAX.received a call fr the person in charged.haish.due to bad memory,i forgot her name.well,it went well.not sure i want to work part time during the christmas or not coz i'll b going to london wit fairy & nana..
yday,my routine*as usual* webcamming & chatting wit papa n mama.im content again.papa asked me to book early tix to go back.yes.going back next summer.yeay!its a must.but in consideration to do practical after my xm.i'll b bck by july/aug.im touched when papa told me to take care of myself as his lil girl is miles away n never forget to perform solat.yes papa,will do insyaallah. back to my subject matter(now i look like a law's student plak),i really wanna go home.i miss my comfy bed,my purplish room*done by hilman*,my cuddling bear2,anak patung saya sekalian n my ride n my dearest super duper friends.shoottt*miera dropped cment saying her calling list has been reduced.i miss to speak wit u babe n the rest..u girls have no idea how my days were when u guys not around.fiza ajakkk g pd later when im back.haaa.i nak itots.
i wonder why im still cant adapt wit my new environment.susah ke?i have fairy n nana.i have my hsemates although i dunno them before.myb im too spoilt in msia.i surrouded by family n friends.biler im all alone,i became unflexible.as far as i concern,im a flexible person.but alhamdulillah,im learning everyday.i learn to wake up on my own,cook*grins*,independent,patience,deal wit own problem w/o rushing to mama&friends,more stronger n remember Allah everyday in mylife as i need the guts to live.living in overseas away fr ur loved ones,will teach how vulnerable life is...
i remember when i spoke to kak ayu before she left uitm to work wit golden hope.her dad died a year ago n she has to handle everything at home.i looked her as a stronger woman.a person who deal wit her problems inccured in her life without giving up.she told me,"akma,if u tak go thru ol dis,u wont taste how vulnerable life is...".well kak ayu,u r absolutely right.life is pain but w/o pain,u wont feel the sweet.there r times smua nyer manis belaka,n there r times,u wish u r dead coz susah hidup nie.ok.cut it.after ol,smua ni obstacles fr Allah swt.
i shall begin with a wide smile now.i want to start a new life in dublin.dats my promise.eventhough is tough,i'll try my level best.sorry if this blog have offended sum parties.i shouldnt keep on missing msian friends everyday.they r still my bestest ones.but my new friends in dublin baik-baik belaka.u guys chill me up always..thanks for giving me a space to b in the circle.at this mo,friends r the best place to shelter.
i rase cm such a warm n frizzy feelings rite now.my time have been occupied wit classes n upcoming assignment.tak der time nak update friendster.neither myspace nor facebook tidak terlayan.very hectic mcm org keja.hahha.liar!fyi,dublin is getting colder.my fav things to do is EATING.my uncle even teased me yg i dah bulats.whaaaaaaattt?jamu pls!hahhaa.webcam mmg tak bole menipu.hate it so much!
i'll post another blog later.blogging out fr dawson hse*sounds like tv presenter plak* at 8.10pm dublin time..will do insyaallah.
Tuesday, 20 November 2007
him.in random.a dedication to a friend of mine.
the one i met as a fren.the one who told me to take care of myself.the one who fetch me and asked me to park my car in hostel.the one who brought medicine when i had headache.the one who washed dishes at my hse.the one who baked me strawberry cheese cake.the one who listened to my advise.the one i share my past.the one who's on my side when his friends make fun of me.the one who sent me to my friend's place n pick me up when it was raining.the one who brought my books.the one who has hidden smile.the one who lepak infront of kolej seroja in the car.the one who gave me flower.the one who wore same colour during his open hse.the one who took me out for breakfast.the one who companied me at 14 studying.the one who read me his own poem.the one who watched me behind when nuha bwk scooter.the one who refused to b a fren again when i told him i cant.the one who yelled to me why cant i understand u.the one who dedicated samson's song bukan lah diriku to me during our last paper last june.the one who nor n i made suprised to him on his birthday n he just said thanks.the one i waited his call n sms on my birthday.the one i couldnt say gud bye before i left.the one dat passed his papers.the one i miss so much as a fren.
hope u doing well there.i still remember what had happened btw us in november.
Monday, 19 November 2007
Friday, 16 November 2007
im happy to webcamming plus chatting wit papa n mama!LOL.im relief.i dunno y but feel like our distance so dekaaaatttssssss.i told evthing to mama.from A-Z.updating her for last week n this week's.so content!smua mendaaa dah luah.hahha.mama is my bestest listener.papa is my bestest informer.hahhhaaa.so jealous coz they'll b out of town for holidays wit my ketos cousins n loving aunties n uncles +tok:((.nakkk ikot pls!my 4 munchkins membesaq. those ketots has grown up so fast.in future hanis will tag into the annoying group in another 12months..nak pulanggggg spend time wit them!!Ya ALLAh,panjangkan umur kami tok ketemu....amin.
Thursday, 15 November 2007
i need a hair spa!
double chin is horror
10 THINGS I HATE DURING WINTER:
1.I EAT ALOT.NO ONE FEED ME BUT I STILL WANT TO EAT
2.I LOVE TO MUNCH ALL THE TIME.DAMN.
3.ITS COLD.I NEED MILLIONS OF SWEATERS;P
4.I COULDNT fit 5 pair of jeans.DATS AWFUL!
5.ITS GOING TO B BOXING DAY N IM BROKE
6.I LOOKED LIKE A HUMPTY DUMPTY:(
7.IRELAND TAK DER SNOW.HAHAHHA
8.I NEED MORE JACKETSsss
9.I WAS FORCED TO FALL IN LOVE WIT books.my assignment must b submitted soon
10.I'LL MISS MALAYSIA BIG SALE.HAHAHAHA.murah skit:p
obviously I PUT ON WEIGHT.EXTRA HUNDREDS POUNDS kot!
Wednesday, 14 November 2007
my nana nono.whr's fairy?
suria n yana's convo