Sunday, 24 June 2012

Absolutely Bliss

"What screws up us most in life is the picture in our head of how it's supposed to be"

So darling,keep on dreaming and even if it breaks your heart and the dream jeopardized.

But I am more keenly aware, now more than ever, that to live a life of faith and to see that faith fail to transpire in any tangible way would be a terrible waste.



Amazing weekend I had for the past 2 weeks.I have always plan for my weekend to keep me occupied.Life is very busy and fulfilling. Last week,I participated in Treasure Hunt organized by the Bank to Penang.Long journey to North with my two Zs( Zara & Zaza) plus Shyam.God knows how tired we were to find the answers for the hunt despite the drama along the journey.

The main purpose of the trip was not just for the hunt,we went for Food Feast which add on additional pounds and calories.Stuffed with Nasi Kandar Beratur,Nasi Kandar Hameedeyah and Sup Hameed,I am content with the companies (Zara,Zara and Shyam).

We managed to get 41st place out of 125.We even almost surrender because the challenge was tough but with the spirit,we decided to continue the journey up straight to Penang!Awesome trip with the Blondes and Shyam who is going to hop to Investment Bank soon.

I thought I am done with the food,but yesterday,I had Nasi Arab at Syahirah and Zack's wedding reception.Again,there goes my calories consumed and I can't wait to be back on treadmill tomorrow .To be frank,I am all out for the past 2 weeks.The next thing I know,I put on weight.*Sigh*.

Anyways,Congrats to my dearest Grafton girl and NMS boy, Syahirah and Zakuan.

Marwan & I

Azza & The Couple


Here's some pictures taken from the Bank's talented photographer; -

The price I have to bear for being eating too much and ditch my diet:-

Chubby cheeks & double chin


Sunday, 10 June 2012

Loving Sunday

Dear You,

They say?

We always laugh,we always quarrel over the phone,we always make fun of each other,we always tease one and another,we always remind each other to lose weight,we always remind  each other how much calories we consume everyday,we always discuss on current issues,we always want to compete on how fit we can run but we never work out together,we always tell each other hows our day so far,updating whatnot and we always "kaypooochi" on little things.

But really, we NEVER have our relationship talk for the past 265 days (roughly).You always said,"I know when you are sad,when you sulk,when you upset and when you are happy.I have the instinct."

And you know what,leading up to this day,I never realized when you are unhappy,when you are making your silly jokes trying to cheer me up.I never knew you could understand me more than I do but You has remained faithful.

I never realized that we are growing day by day and working towards something better.Time flies really quick.With all the efforts you have done and given,THANK YOU for always bear with my various of emotions and never give up easily.

Here's something I would love to tell you how grateful I am to have you around although I can't literally tell you verbally :-

I hate when you tell me how slim I was thosedays,
I hate when you tease me,
I hate when you imitate whatever I've said,
I hate when you never replied when I said "MISSSSS",
I hate when you captured my ugliest picture,
I hate to call you millions of times and you still sleeping,
I hate when you burp on the phone like nobody business,
I hate when you said my volume was too high talking to you on the phone,
I hate when you are trying to make me blushing,
I hate when you want to sparring with me to annoy me.


You made me fall in love with you everyday and I never had the chance to say this to you.


I can't stop smiling seeing your good old days picture back in RMC.You were so comot back in school.I always wish we have known each other 10 years back.

You are my world,my everything,reason to breathe,chocolate on top of my ice-cream,a whipped cream on top of my mocha,rainbow to my sky,colour of my world,you are my shoulder to cry on and you are music to my song.I never thought that a person I consider a stranger is literally a person I can trust and rely on.

I love you Baby :)

Wednesday, 6 June 2012

Your Past?

             "If we want a life of our dreams, rather than a life that is presented to us, we must live courageously"

Life is happening right now.Why shall we dwell over the past and worrying the future.Sometimes we take ourselves entirely too seriously.Let go and be spontaneous.You can't learn something new and uncover new opportunity that's happening now if your mind is stuck in another time.True?It is.

Right now is LIFE.Appreciate the present.This is the only moment that guaranteed.If its meant to happen,it will.Stay Positive!

Even it takes you a bucket of tears to pursue your happiness now,You need to have the courage to move forward.Everything that happens in life neither good or bad and no matter how it turns out,appreciate the pleasant outcomes,LEARN to accept the fact.

Summer 2009,Limerick,Ireland.

Sunday, 3 June 2012

12 things to feel happier

*Inspiring post from Marc & Angel

1. Learn To forgive

2. Express Gratitude

3. Cultivate optimism

4. Avoid over thinking and social comparison

5. Practice act acts of kindness

6. Social Relationship

7. Develop strategies for Coping

8. Increase flow experiences

9. Savour life's joy

10. Commit to your goals

11.Practice Spiritually

12. Take care of your BODY 

Appreciate every single thing happened in your life.Basically being grateful for the goodness that is already evident in your life will bring you  a deeper sense of HAPPINESS.The failure is only an opportunity to grow and learn a new lesson from life.

At one point I always think my failure wakes me up.How did I respond with craptastic moment?I cried which was not worth every tears dropped.I didn't feel good.It was hard to cope and I must be an idiot that time.So,when I realized it was inevitable,I decided to have ME-TIME.Went spa,manicure and pedicure every 2 weeks,dyed my hair into blonde(ops $#$$$),becoming socialite and of course being optimistic.People who think optimistically see the world as a place packed with endless opportunities especially when you had awful broken heart!

Never compare your life with another.Comparing yourself to someone else can be poisonous.You are BETTER than anyone else in this world.If you feel called to compare yourself with something,compare yourself to an old version of yourself!No matter where are you today or what you have done in the past,YOU NEED TO ACCEPT yourself now:)

I must admit,in the past,I was full with emotion."Harbouring feeling of hatred is horrible".I hate everything which related to my past and continuously think about it.Those negative emotions are eating away my immune system.I learnt to forgive and move on.Get over it and differentiate between past and present emotion.Well,all girls were born to be so FRAGILE.Technically if you hate "someone" ,learn to forget them and forgive them.You'll be in the peace :)

Being happiest people on the planet definitely involves a relationship!I mean a meaningful relationship!Do have good relationship and practice spiritually with Allah, we will definitely recognize that life is bigger than us.Remember it has been written purposely.Doa and never stop DOA .Connect more to HIM because HE will definitely replace it with something joy!

Stay connected with friends and family.There's a warm fuzzy feeling that comes from having an active circle of good friends who you can share your experiences with.Stop being lonely .Research show people's mortality are doubled when you are lonely.I was lucky enough to have wonderful and amazing family and friends around when I had my "moment".They were there to comfort me telling me the journey is long way to go.Stay focus and engaged in the activity to keep me fully occupied.Life can be the most rewarding if we remember to fully experience it!!

Deep happiness can't exist without slowing down to enjoy the joy.I am truly happy and content now hoping there's no more drama again.I slowly enjoy every bit with a new man in my life now and adapting the thing called relationship although it's still new.Everyday is a brand new day.My other half can be silly at times.He sent me silly text and I always think he's insane.


Him: TIDOOOOOOOOOOO (go sleep now)

Me: Bye

Him : Bye too.

Instead of replying back with "i miss you too",he replied me with an annoying text ever.I laughed and ended I refused to send him any text.He never being nice to me.I always want an attention while he thinks he has given me full attention.Haha.Once he asked me, "How much more you want an attention?"

and I went ,


I am too scared to tell him that I want a basket of attentions without realizing the thoughts that counts.I have forgotten how much he has given me full attention and made me happy everyday in my life.If he didn't pay much attention on me,who in the world I went to when I am unhappy and dissatisfied? It's HIM!


Congrats to my two dearest Dublin Girls who are soon to be a wifey and live happily!Marriage is a new beginning of life.My prayers to both of you and make more babies in this world.


Waed @ Bun.