Sunday, 29 September 2013

You-Me-Our story

Life is strange, isn't it? It's so hard to explain what it is, what the point of it is, but there are some really amazing things in it, aren't there? What if your purpose was just to enjoy life, to take it all in, to live every moment as if it were your last? What if you were put on this earth only to enjoy and love everything (good and bad) about the world? Life is odd but it's also beautiful. Even pain, sadness, and desperation are beautiful in their own ways. When I take a step back and look at life as a beautiful, amazing thing, it puts my small life in perspective. It reminds me that whatever my purpose is is part of a collective purpose, a universal state of living that we are all experiencing. Thinking about it this way makes my purpose -- whatever that might be -- seem more grand and, in an odd way, more worthwhile.

I remember I spend countless hours thinking about what could happen in the future and preparing for the worst, I tell myself, just so I'm not disappointed or surprised. When I think back on all the scenarios I've imagined, it's shocking how many of those have never happened. Though I stressed and worried and thought about them (just as if they were really happening), they never occurred. These "thought attacks" were happening in real life, while these imagined scenarios were only occurring in my mind. But who are we to question what Allah has written for us?Never before I have thought about happiness after what I've gone through.I spend all of my time talking about the negative things and try to get rid of it.

But not anymore,

When I think that my life is unfolding just as it should, that nothing is a mistake, and that everything is happening for a reason, I find that I'm much more at peace with myself and the world. If I love my life as it is now, I don't have to revisit the past and I don't have to wait hopefully for the future. I can be here, now, happy. Of course I don't do this all of the time (I wish I could!) but when I find myself really loving the way my life is, not wanting to change a thing about it, I am at my happiest. And things happened really quick.

I was overjoyed when I read the title "Happiness Doesn't Just Happen." Wow. That sounds like something that could be the story of my life in four words! Happiness doesn't just happen -- at least not for most people. Happiness is something you have to work at, work towards, and keep working on. For some people, happiness comes with ease.

As for me, it's so wonderful to know that every day I can choose to be happy.Although,I spent 2 years to really find my happiness :)

Monday, 16 September 2013

Perfect life

Sound simple? Yeah, not so much if you're slightly neurotic perfectionist like myself. I like perfect things. I like perfect outfits. I like perfect hand-writing. I like perfect (not necessarily happy) endings like relationship. I like perfect tasks at work. I like doing things well -- the best, if possible. I'm not overly competitive with others, but I'm pretty damn competitive with myself. I want to do the best I can when I've decided to commit myself to something. I want, if at all possible,perfection.

 Perfection is not possible in the grand scheme of life. No matter how wonderful, happy, or peaceful your life is, it's never going to be perfect. N-E-V-E-R. As a perfection-seeker, this a hard concept for me to grasp. My life will never be perfect? My dreams,my desire!! I have to admit that my heart skips a beat when I think about that. We all want a perfect life right? The question we all accept the fact that we can't have one? I think I'm still working on making sense of this reality.We never can satisfy ourselves.NEVER.

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Even the most horrific, awful things in my life have taught me something, have made me the person I am today. It's not easy to remember this when dealing with a crisis or heartbreak, but it's so important to remember that life is what it is. Some things are out of our control and we just have to realize that someday the reason for what happens will be explained. I do my best to learn from every mistake, every bad situation, and all of these little lessons have added up to make me the person I am right now. I live now without NO FEAR to accept certain things are not meant to be PERFECT.

Sunday, 15 September 2013


"The Invitation"

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.

I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have becomeshriveled and closed from the fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with your pain -- mine or ours --without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy -- mine or ours --and if you can dance with the wildness and let the ecstasyfill you to the tips of your fingertips and toes without cautioning usto be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

Life is far from perfect (and how boring it would be if it were perfect!), but it's stable and sane and happy. I wake up and I know why I'm here, what I'm doing, and how lucky I am to have the people in my life supporting and love me more than I do. I wake up and feel happy although I have gone through lot of things.My journey wasn't smooth. But I had to make an effort (a BIG effort) to change myself and until I found the meaning of true happiness I have been waiting for..After all I need to be happy for entire life.Probably some of the best things that happened in my life because I least expect.The amazing feelings to wake up knowing the fact everything was perfectly presented. Alhamdulillah.