Monday, 16 September 2013

Perfect life

Sound simple? Yeah, not so much if you're slightly neurotic perfectionist like myself. I like perfect things. I like perfect outfits. I like perfect hand-writing. I like perfect (not necessarily happy) endings like relationship. I like perfect tasks at work. I like doing things well -- the best, if possible. I'm not overly competitive with others, but I'm pretty damn competitive with myself. I want to do the best I can when I've decided to commit myself to something. I want, if at all possible,perfection.

 Perfection is not possible in the grand scheme of life. No matter how wonderful, happy, or peaceful your life is, it's never going to be perfect. N-E-V-E-R. As a perfection-seeker, this a hard concept for me to grasp. My life will never be perfect? My dreams,my desire!! I have to admit that my heart skips a beat when I think about that. We all want a perfect life right? The question we all accept the fact that we can't have one? I think I'm still working on making sense of this reality.We never can satisfy ourselves.NEVER.

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Even the most horrific, awful things in my life have taught me something, have made me the person I am today. It's not easy to remember this when dealing with a crisis or heartbreak, but it's so important to remember that life is what it is. Some things are out of our control and we just have to realize that someday the reason for what happens will be explained. I do my best to learn from every mistake, every bad situation, and all of these little lessons have added up to make me the person I am right now. I live now without NO FEAR to accept certain things are not meant to be PERFECT.