12th July 2014

Over a year ago at this date, I remember receiving my first promotion letter from my former Director Business Banking who is now an Executive Director Banking. The excitement of receiving perfect gift a week before my birthday was the best thing ever during fasting month. And that night, I decided to perform terawikh at Putrajaya Mosque and drove all the way from home. 

To be completely honest, on that night itself, I prayed to God to grant me a soulmate. A guy who will loves me like my parent do, who always bear with my emotions and always there when I need a shoulder to cry. Ah we all want it. A perfect relationship. Finding a new hope in a relationship.

And much to my surprise, the next day after subuh prayer, a guy who was drifted apart from my life for almost 2 years called confronted his feeling. It was an amazing feeling and I thought that was it. My dua' was answered. So I gently open my heart and start a new chapter in life (relationship).  Everything was filled with beautiful things.It's like a fairytale.

A man who has an ability to truly savor all of the beautiful things life has to offer. He is the man I couldn't imagine existed and who I have been fortunate to know and admire.I don’t have to be superwoman around him. I can be the goofy, silly, crazy, weird, screwed and crippled and he still can bear with me.

But the challenge was only LDR. Happiness takes effort and, what some people might not realize, is it also takes courage. It's not easy to be in a long distance relationship. I had once and it jeopardised after more than 8 years together. Therefore, I tried not to look at the world through a negative lens. I tried to only see positive in LDR but Allah has his own plan for us. Things didn't work out for us. Distance and commitments.it was the hardest thing to say goodbye because there was so much hope.

It's been a life-changing experience in this LDR. I wonder why life send you these people who steal your heart in an instant, only to let them disappear shortly after. But one thing I learnt from this, is when I asked Allah to grant me a guy who makes me happy for entire life, He gave me a guy who made me laugh and smile besides helping me to eliminate my past moving forward to a better future.. It was an incredible experience and journey although it was a little while.