Friday, 2 May 2014

489 days

I used to think I knew exactly what my life would be like. I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I knew what I wanted and what I thought would happen to me. But I had no idea that I let myself live in complicated way in such a way that I keep on feeling sad and break down again and again. As we grow older, we tend to complicate things even its a small matter.

It's been so hard for me to live in the moment, especially in moments that I would have rather lived without.It hasn't been easy. I've had a hard time letting go of the negative attitude I used to cling and I cried thinking how my life is so vulnerable. My life is filled with all sorts of ups and downs and good times and bad times. I've been living life both the positive and the negative side. Of course the negative side will be my love relationship.I would find myself in a completely different place, almost as if I'd woken up finally from a dream.There are little bits of negativity that creep in from time to time.

I've mentioned it before, but I'll say it again: I would not be where I am right now if it weren't for a great support system and an amazing friends. I've had a great cohort of family and friends who have supported me as I've made a lot of big changes in my life and I will be forever grateful to those who have stuck by my side through the past year (which, believe me, wasn't always easy). I wouldn't be where I am today without the strength I gained from their support.