As much as I'm not thrilled to be thirty this year, I'm pretty excited to look back on the past year and reflect on what an amazing, positive experience it was. 2014 has been a surprised year for me. Too many surprises happening in 365 days. It has been almost a year since I decided to give up on my mini dresses and looks. My transformation was my biggest achievement thus far and Allah has given me the strength to move on to another level without regretting it.Every day I'm learning more and more about the person I am and the person I want to be.
One of the reasons it was so awesome is because I learned so much about life. Every year I learn more and more and, in my opinion, that's one of the best highs life has to offer. Looking back and realizing just how far I have came to reach the point that life is too short to waste it. You wouldn't know when your time is up and all the beautiful things in this world are temporary.
So much has happened over the past twelve months. So much has changed, but, in many ways, so much of the good in my life has remained. The past year has taught me a great deal about myself and about people around me. Looking back on the year I realized what an amazing 365 days it really was. It's been a whirlwind of a year,
I fall in love, I broke up, I changed my job, I met new friends and befriends and I shop a lot than year before last year. Ahem;p
No matter what I've been through in 2014, I've had some good days and some bad days. When I first starting thinking about my love life, the word "break-up" started flashing in my mind like a big neon sign. I must admit, some of those days were horrendous. Some of those days were the worst days I've ever had. But those days was my past. I remember myself still lingering over my relationships I had, all those grudge I had for long time and I started to realize this won't take me elsewhere.I won't say that my year as a twenty-nine year old was total failure as most of relationships I entered after my bad break up in 2011 was failed, but it was a lesson for me to be even a better person.
How things have changed since then. When I handed my resignation letter after obtaining an offer from Islamic bank sometime in June. It was the hardest part in my entire career to explain to my bosses. I remember crying in the toilet thinking " is this the right thing to do" when I know I am surrounded by good people and I believed I have bright future in Affin Bank. But after my istiqarah, I came to the point that change is good for myself. Alhamdulillah, I am very happy with my new job although clearly I can't get over myself being an RM in Corporate Banking and turning into Market Economic Analyst in Treasury division. My new colleagues and boss are very helpful indeed. Although I feel a bit intimidated when I first entered the dealing room because everyone is so brilliant and exposed more than I do, I started to love what I am doing. From shit-i-don't know- what is US economy has got to do with us, I slowly picked up here and there. There is a new assignment for almost every day, which I found to be really motivating.To be honest, I didn't regret to change my job at all. One of my best decision in 2014.
I realized there a lot of things changed in 2014. I can't help but look to the future of 2015 and have hope that it's going to be an amazing year.My resolution probably won't be much of a surprise to those of you who have been reading my blog for awhile. To be happy forever , save more to buy more bags ( I ended buying 9 handbags in 2014) and of course to pass my PPKM and SIDC exams this year and get my license as soon as possible! Focus on my career and keep myself fit. I really believe that incorporating something into your life daily helps to reinforce it so find a way to incorporate whatever your resolution is into your daily life somehow.
Also, I am looking forward for my third umrah trip soon. InsyaAllah. For now, Happy New Year everyone! Let's pray for a better year and to those who have passed away. Al fatihah to my grandaunt Jasmin Abdullah and a friend who closed to me Azyati Ahmad Tamin who passed away in December. May Allah always be with each and everyone of you.