Sunday, 18 January 2015

Don't lose hope

Whether I am writing a short story about my life, sum up of what i am doing couple of weeks ago,a short note in my notebook, a research paper, a blog post, I am always writing something. My fingers are always on the move, finding the keys quickly on the keyboard and sending messages from my mind to my hands to the screen. I love writing. I write that with a fierceness that I cannot accurately describe although sometimes i screwed up my grammar. For me, writing is a way of life and writing is really an amazing thing. Think about it. How many times have you written or read something that has changed you, even a little bit? I have so many memories of moments when reading and writing changed me. I remember myself having my own diary when I was 13, writing about people around me, my feelings and list of my crush.

Writing helps me a lot to keep moving forward. Because it helps me be positive and it helps me stay present. I'll admit that, in the past, writing hasn't been the most positive thing for me. Some of the stories I've written are downright  depressing and I know that I've torturing myself for long time.  Approaching into 2015, I told myself, this is the year to be less negative and heads up for a better year. I’ve been giving some serious thought to how I transformed my outlook from negative-focused to positive-focused this year. Though I have to admit that there are many, many factors involved in my personal development to be positive besides my support system - friends and family, I believed God has given a full strength to go through this year without thinking too much on unnecessary things such as fate.

As a negative person, I tended to attract negative people. When I decided to make the change to live a more positive life, I had to rid my life of all of the negative people in it. This, as you can imagine, wasn’t easy. Getting rid of people hurts  even when you know they aren’t good for you or your current lifestyle. Not only that, I have to get rid of the negative people and negative things too. I had to stop doing certain things that were causing negativity in my life. I had to take a step back and examine which behaviors were good for me and which were not.

 I learned to focus on the positive things and never lose hope in finding my happiness in whatever I embarking on and do. InsyaAllah. One thing I realized, when I write about the past/future, I release parts of myself onto the page and/or screen and I free up my mind to focus on the present. There is something about writing that allows for a letting go once the words become a reality. Let go of negative and focus on what is on the plate now...