A u-turn

Life is very much like the world under the big top filled with the unexpected, the exciting, and the terrifying part. It has been almost three weeks since I left my exciting job as a market economic analyst in one of biggest islamic bank. It's hard for me to tear myself away from the bloomberg, reuters and the dealing room itself after 1 year and 9 months. I had a great time being an analyst, get to expand my knowledge on economics, networking and helpful colleagues. In case my boss is reading this, Thank you very much for being a good listener, never failed to give me full support during my upside-down dealing with exams and the knowledge you had poured to me. I am so grateful:)

My emotions were all over the place , one moment I was thrilled to start my new job (well not so new to me), one moment I am just scared of what my future will look like.. Back to my old place, doing things I used to love. Yes I did. I made a u-turn to my old place. 

It can be tough to be proud of yourself without feeling as if you're boastful.. It's okay to admit that you did an amazing job on something or accomplished something you never thought you could. When you celebrate yourself and your achievements, you're focusing on the really good things about you and that's going to make self-love a lot easier. 

Happy 17th Ramadhan everyone! Cheers for a better future:)

Sharing Stories : 6 months to go.

So much of the attention cast on wedding preparations, I have lost an aunt whom I never-missed to hop and did sleep over whenever I am back at my kampung (Melaka hood) when I was little..  My Mak Lang Ros passed away around 3pm yesterday after battled with 4th stage of cancer. Sad. Life is too short.This Mak Lang of mine is my dad's closes cousin sister whom he grew up with and he never missed to pay her a visit everytime we are back in hometown. A person with a big heart.. Your kindness will always be remembered. Al- Fatihah to dearest Mak Lang Rosnah. I always wish you're papa's real sister. May Allah reward you Jannah..

Getting married - I don't know much about wedding dresses.  The dress should be one of the concern at the moment right. Hmmm 6 months to go before the wedding, I am still enjoying my breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper without worrying my weight which obviously I am overweight right now ;(. 

Sadly, my futsal activities didn't help me much to loose any of my fats.My imaginations  left soaring as my dream of the weddings to go with these picture-perfect gowns( definitely I must think of how to cover my aurat ).  Aside, I finally booked preetypekture for the wedding reception and still finalising the solemnisation videographer. Besides, i am done with the pre-wed courses (Kursus Kahwin). Phewww. A lot more to go and seriously all you need is more $$$$ moolahhhhh.

Hoping that I can get it sorted after Ramadhan which coming so soon... Honestly I can't wait for the Ramadhan to come. 

sharing stories: Engagement

When you're going through a tough time, usually the last thing you want to think about is the good time to come. When faced with unhappiness or negative emotions, it can be hard to see through the rain clouds to a time when sunshine will once again brighten your life. However, looking past those clouds to a brighter, better day is exactly what you need to do when times are tough. I used to be irritated by the notion that, when things are tough, they'll someday get better, but having been through some really tough storms and arriving in a place of sunshine, I know all too well how important focusing on the positive can be.Life is an adventure full of ups and downs. You will never get rid of negativity altogether, so you might as well accept it and use those challenges to grow.

 It's almost a month I am engaged. 

 Part of panicking to prepare and plan for the unplanned engagement took me less than 3 weeks. Phew.. The amount of stress amid preparing for my battle in exams in April was so tiring. Alhamdulillah, the event went well with the assistance from my mum and dad, dearest cousins and dear friends.( Special thanks to my best friend, Liyana for the arrangement, Hazlind for being my partner in crime, Shahirahtunnawar for the company and Sabrina for being planner)

Venue & Caterer: The Atmosphere, Seri Kembangan (Weddingstudio)

Make Up: Norashikin MUA

Dress & Veil: Mimpikita

Dais & Flowers Arrangement : Muassmo

Photographer : Sahabatlensa Photographer & Azizul

Candy Buffet : Norzila -cousin

He puts ring on it :p

Knowing when to open the door to your heart is the absolute best way to protect it. It's much easier said than done. After years of searching for the right guy, finding whats the best for me and trying to fit into one & another and crying over one relationship to another relationship, I was officially engaged last Sunday. Honestly, the preparation took both of families roughly around 3 weeks plus went well.. Alhamdulillah. Thanks to dearest cousins and friends who worked hard for the last minute plan, running here and there to ensure the small intimate event smooth.. I'm so incredibly grateful to have everyone around me.. Till the next post love..Still can't believe I am engaged to my best dude, a friend i called "bro"for years. 

I cannot for the life of me believe that it is a first week of January 2016 already! Time truly has beaten me last year and I'm really not ready for this year 2016. What lies ahead? I feel like I'm in this really messy part of my life and other things have been for the past couple of months. I'm trying to figure it out as I go but it's a bit of a struggle and I feel like a drama queen to even be writing about this. But that's half the problem.

I'll be honest: I'm not the best at protecting my heart. I love love so much that sometimes I don't always make the best heart-related choices. For example, I cling to romantic notions of what I think something could be and ignore what it is. I'm often so hopeful things will work out someday that I often avoid dealing with what's happening now. (Healthy, I know...) When it comes to love, hopefulness isn't always a bad thing, but sometimes I'm so frantically hopeful that I swing the door to my heart wide open when it might be better slammed shut.