Saturday, 6 June 2015

What's stopping you?

While I really am trying to live in the moment and focus on what's happening right now, I can't help but look to think what's stopping me to decide what is the best decision for myself. Of course I am referring to the previous post on how i FEEL right now at the moment. Nothing major to be honest but there is so much happening right now in my life and, if you're anything like me, you probably rush by it all the time. 

Every aspect of my life has changed since I made the decision to choose happiness last year. It started in my blog and then flowed into every part of my life, and it continues to grow every day. I am the healthiest and happiest that I have ever been. The choice to think more positively and seek out positive things leads to more confidence, better decision-making, so much more clarity, and fuels a desire to continuously improve and be better than I was before.

But as I travel to my destination of finding my own happiness, I found myself afraid of admitting my feeling and scared to loose. What gets me excited is whenever it crosses my mind, it leaves me feeling so overjoyed or pumped that make me can barely sit. Believe me, I know how much courage it takes to willingly tell the person your feelings. It really can be terrifying, the thought of confronting and confessing. I honestly think it was that fear that held me back at this juncture. I knew I needed to ask and tell although I am so afraid...

Life is hard.  There is no shame in saying so.  Pain hurts.  There is no weakness implied in feeling the inevitable discomforts that are the cost of taking this risk of confronting.  But if the discomforts persist longer than they should, it is always worth asking what that is. So yesterday when I told one of my closes friend about this matter, she asked me, what is the purpose of your life? "To live in joy but no regret in future"...It is a small thing, but for me, merely thinking about challenges in a different way makes them more unbearable. I knew I have done my mistakes years ago when I have no chance to say it, but one thing i am scared of is loosing the friendship and the laughter we shared. 

Before immediately responding to my post and the previous post, please bear with my picks for this post. Pictures taken last weekend during the two big events. Loving the make up and these ladies. Anyway, my sissy back in Dublin got engaged last week to her love of her life. Trust me, they made long distance relationship work out. Congratulation my dear Fardila and Aizat. Nail it! well tonight, another big day for my another friend Reen. I am looking forward for all big events such as engagement and wedding before pause starts in another 2 weeks. Have a fabulous weekend dearies!