Monday, 10 December 2012

every moment of the day count

"While love is always present and available to us,
it usually takes two hearts, two minds, and two souls
to find our way there."
Julie Orlov 

I was living a much happier life, making much more positive choices, and adjusting to the notion that I could, in fact, live in the present moment. I was on the road to getting better, living better, and learned from my lesson in my past relationship.There will be times,I lived in my past and so often, I wrote sad things about being in a relationship. Anyone who has been a relationship knows, they aren't all sunshine and rainbows, smiles and happiness. They are hard work sometimes, but I've found that you usually get just about as much as you put into them.

Something that was much closer than I thought but that took awhile to connect with because life happens when it's meant to happen and love happens because it's meant to be.True love, the real kind that both gets your blood pumping with excitement and has the ability to stand the test of time, comes not alone but hand-in-hand with respect, trust, honesty, and forgiveness.

Over the past a year, the absolute greatest lessons love has taught me is that, there is one person who could, no matter how low I felt, help me rise above whatever I was facing and encourage me to see the sun peaking its head through the clouds. There is one person who reinforced the idea of positivity and reminded me that I would get through even the toughest of times.Someone else's existence has impacted my own in such a profound and meaningful way.

So many times, I've been in love and had this feeling, deep in my gut, that something wasn't right. I can remember literally thinking to myself, "I have to get out of this situation." Feeling panicked and trapped is not what love is about. 

One of the most important things to know about love is that the right person for you is the one who makes you better. I'm not the type to willingly admit others have an such a big impact on me, but in this case it's undeniable.Mr Stranger and I have been closed almost a year and half.Every time we hang out with friends,we prefer to be seen a friend.
Both of us seems not admitting that we are more than friends.It is unfortunate that so many great loves end up turning sour, leaving one or both partners disappointed and unhappy. Many people believe that the initial spark they once felt for another will magically return, but that's not realistic.That was the same feeling I had when Mr Stranger and I embarking this relationship.

When I started to expose that I'm in a relationship,the whole world seems asking,who I am with? For whatever reason, we never had our picture together uploaded neither in Facebook nor twitter.I must admit,it was the toughest time of my life to enter new relationship where we were both in completely different places in our lives.Deep down I've always had a feeling that this relationship won't work out.I was still overwhelmed with my past and letting go was so impossible.In fact, I did send him smses and confronted  him,this relationship won't work out.I was very unhappy and told him this is not normal relationship.

However, I've come to believe that the right kind of love makes the give and take obvious. It makes it unthinkable to even consider not giving and getting lots and lots of love. nothing is quite as inspiring as love and someone who loves you and believes in you. The right kind of honest, true love will make you realize you really can do what you want to do with your life, and that you, and only you, have the ability to transform your world.

 I can honestly say I know exactly how he's feeling because nothing feels as good as when he looks at me with love in his eyes. To tell you the truth, this was terrifying for me. I always liked to keep other people at an arm's length and to pull someone close to me was an act I was unfamiliar with.For the past a year of together, we never hold hands,we never say " i love you",we never cuddle in public,we never hold our hands in the cinema when we were cold,we never had all these throughout the relationship goes.I always wonder,does this call a relationship when you only go out on date once a week or casual friends?

 I didn't know what it was. I've been in love before, but with him, it has always been different.Today I just had to tell not only him but all of you,relationship is not about you hold his hand in public and walk together,but the thoughtfulness of being together when you share every single thing happening everyday in your life.Clearly put time and effort into creating the perfect thing for both of you.I can't compare my past relationship which it was completely differ.We both were in matured but in this case,I just feel that expressions of love come in all shapes and sizes.Its the moment of the day count.

Love makes us passionate about life. It’s one of the greatest things we can experience and it’s something that can be very, very hard to define.