Thursday, 6 November 2008

10 years

Here i am again.Blogging :)

After a while,i found myself lost with my own words.confused what i want in my life today and future.I admit myself always dependent.I cant make my own decision and will turn to family and friends to decide.Even my relationship too which i suppost to decide for own sake.To think back,I started to stand on my own feet when i arrived in Dublin,place i called home for another few years and yet i still cant cook and feed anyone coz i relied on ppl around me to cook.thats sucks..I just have no effort to work things out..again,that makes me so un-favourable to myself.this entry is not cursing me for being like this,but i definitely need self glad,with all the courage,im willingly to try.yes,learning process.its not too late to change.Mama always said"u may not change your beauty outside,but u may change the internally".It makes me realise,i just have to keep on trying regardless how hard it is.Betol tak?In life,what sometimes appears to be the end,is really a new beginning....

What i will be in 1o years time?

I can imagine what i am in 10 years time.I probably not an auditor or accountant who sits on the chair working ass.Working and keep working like both of my parents.They r very workaholic.Im proud of them though and appreciate every penny of their effort,loves and cares.I wish im like papa who only sleeps at 10pm and mama who never stop working to make her life occupied.Seriously im differ from them.I still remember when i was 14,i wanted to be an interior designer.Then i changed to become a lawyer.I used to be very ambitious but always didnt stick to my innitial plan.Sad huh?Well,im saying in 10 years time i want to stay at home to be full time home-maker,spend more time with my both parents,seeing my liltle cousins growing up,make family bond closer than today,tea-ing & cooking with aunties and uncles,shopping and hanging out with friends,gardening with papa,teaching kids and have own business, interior and wedding planner:)

10 years is a long way to go.Insyaallah.Meantime,im praying hard to get my ass to pass with flying colours for my final year to make both Papa and Mama smile on my graduation.Smile=Proud.It is always their dream to see me graduate and this will be the second time after CAT.Thus,Papa will graduate sometime next year and both anak beranak will graduate in the same time.Amin.Its all plan and may Allah will be with us.

Tomorrow another Management Accounting class(my fav subject forever!) and need to submit Irish class after 11 am and yeay,next week is reading week.Looking forward to kawteeem with all subjects i cudnt catch up and outline plan for individual assignments:)

Havent solated yet and need some beauty nappy.Laters!

P/S:excuse my long entry.emo:)