Sunday, 15 March 2009

Mengenangmu,



i know its sounds very jiwang.it just i want to express my unstable emotion now.i cannot deny the fact,even if i hate and despise him,i never get over him.5 years i've been devoted myself and 2 years in recovery.its just hard.LOVE CAN DESTROYED U in a second.everyday id wonder if he misses me.so after months of silence,i put extra guts to call him and his aunt.i cried...,


and so he and his aunt.past is already past.the memories i kept inside and i am stepping new step.his aunt was really closed to me just like his late mum.im part of the family for years and now i have to say good bye forever as a stepping stone to get a new life.things have changed.he has his own life and so do i.aunt angah begged me not to shut them off." i won't auntie...,"


if aunt noriah is still here(his late mum),she will be the one who will be the saver.she wrote note asking him to marry me after i graduate and settle down in melbourne still overwhelmed me.that was years ago before she left.its almost 3 years she has left us.im truly miss her.we shared same passion on furniture esp kayu jati and she let me choosed her sofa fabric.she was a great mum just like MAMA.


incase aunt angah come across this,thank u so much for u time,help and loves.u were the best lawyer aunt i never met.Siti fairuz and Siti Aishah,Kak akma will miss to fecth u girls at school,gelak2,gossips,shopping and exchange fashion with u girls.Remember i love u girls like my sisters.to cousins,bapak,wani+mi and the rest,thank u so much..


finally,him.as a person i used to love most.thanks a mil for ur time,unconditional love,cares and sincerity.i would never forget things we did together for the period of time.u was the place i can count on.plus u always being my good friend who remind me to solat everyday.i appreciate ur concern and all those stuff we shared will remained in my heart.sorry im no longer ur best friend like u always said,im no more next after ur mum.thank u for the effort u put for years.im glad u r pursuing ur dreams.i wish u all the best in life.faith has brought us together and faith also split us.Allah has better plan for us,Hilman..from the bottom of my heart,im sorry again.

Thanks for the memories..........................................

3 comments:

Juicy said...

Aww babe. Be strong ay!

aysha said...

b strong darling!!luv ya..

Anonymous said...

i'll never pretend that i understand what you are going through but, in life love is always sweet but....................we can only hope for rainbow at the end of the tunnel.so....the only best thing to do is to move on with our life and make sure that the scar will nvr bleed again.....hope so.............

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